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Wednesday, May 24, 2006


I just realized the month of june is going to be awesome!
june 16th i go to bermuda for a week and a half then when i get back i jump on a plane to cali
life must be getting better !
its weird I wasn't the one growing up that's dream was to move to cali
and now i;m actually doing it

on another note
marc my roommate is moving out june 1st
its great he's so consider-it and doesn't really give steve and i any notice!
fuck that kid


Friday, May 19, 2006


steve dave dow and i are here
at there work
i love them!!!!


Tuesday, May 16, 2006


I pretty much have the life right now!
I have my bike again!
I barely work, which isn't the best thing but its pretty sweet!
and I love the new friends i've made


Sunday, April 16, 2006


i hate easter
i wish this stupid holiday never came

the only man i actually cared to talk to


Saturday, April 15, 2006


love grows in me like a tumor
parasite bent on devouring it's host
i'm developing my sense of humor
till i can laugh at my heart between your teeth
till i can laugh with my face beneanth your feet

skillet on the stove what a temptation
maybe i'll be the special one the doesn't get burned

what the fuck was i thinking

love plows through me like a dozer
i've got more give then a bail of hay
and theres always a big mess left over
with what did you do and what did you say
with what did you do and what did you say

skillet on the stove what a temptation
maybe i'll be the special one the doesn't get burned

what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking

love tears me up like a demon
opens the wounds and then fills them with lead
and i'm having some trouble just breathen
if we weren't such good friends i'd think i'd just hate you
if we werent such good friends i'd wish you were dead

skillet on the stove what a temptation
maybe i'll be the special one the doesn't get burned

what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking
what the fuck was i thinking

love is so embarrassing
and awkward and uncomfortable thing
i'm running out of places to hide it
what the fuck was i thinking


Tuesday, March 28, 2006



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Thursday, March 23, 2006


i'm in love!

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Monday, March 20, 2006


If I were to live my life
in catfish forms
in scaffolds of skin and whiskers
at the bottom of a pond
and you were to come by
one evening
when the moon was shining
down into my dark home
and stand there at the edge
of my affection
and think, "It's beautiful
here by this pond.I wish
somebody loved me,"
I'd love you and be your catfish
friend and drive such lonely
thoughts from your mind
and suddenly you would be
at peace,
and ask yourself, "I wonder
if there are any catfish
in this pond?It seems like
a perfect place for them."


Saturday, March 18, 2006


If love is great and there are no greater things than what i feel for you must be the greatest.


Monday, March 6, 2006


The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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Wednesday, March 1, 2006


Nothing will ever be the same
i hate it
if i could take back everything with a price
i'd be broke!

i'm so/so now
waiting to get picked up by my "love"
i didn't leave last night
i thought to much of someone
but nothing matters anymore, it's not supposed to
i get hurt sitting here doing nothing, just thinking

i'm done with burlington
it's pretty immature
ha i don't think i actually talk to anyone from burlington anymore
o well it's better now
once again

"You've given me strength. The strength to overcome what I cannot change. The power to destroy whatever's in my way. There's no more looking back, only straight ahead. Open my eyes and come alive with a brand new strength. You give me strength, strength to rise above. I can't believe how far we've come. Moving forward."

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Monday, February 27, 2006



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Monday, January 16, 2006


he is crazy and i love it! < 3


Thursday, December 1, 2005


my wish for christmas is to have a home for my cats and I
I wish to feel at home somewhere
somewhere where i don't get annoyed by this boy
somewhere where i can be alone for a couple minutes without you asking me 20 questions

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Friday, November 18, 2005


I miss being a pumpkin :(
those were some of the best days!
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Todays forecast
heavy depression with cold winds of reality

This is the end.
This story's old
But it goes on and on
Until we disappear.
Calm me and let me taste
The salt that you breathed
While you were underneath.
I am the one who haunts your dreams
Of mountains sunk below the sea.
I spoke the words but never
Gave a thought to what they all could mean.
I know that this is what you want.
A funeral keeps both of us apart.
You know that you are not alone.
Need you like water in my lungs.
This is the end.



this is me being sketchy


Thursday, August 4, 2005


Thank you lord:
1) for this oil slick.
2) for his car wreck.
3) for I'm lovesick.

Thank you lord:

4) for the loaded gun.
5) for the bad aim.
6) for I'm lonesome.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005



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Thursday, May 19, 2005



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Sunday, April 17, 2005


It really sucks finding out that the people you used to be friends with are nothing to you anymore, Your just a piece of shit if your reading this. I hope doing that really made you feel good. I don't understand you one bit anymore.
I'm pissed
fuck off and die you whore bag
anyways life goes on and there is so many more people that are better than you

Also to another good friend
If he's such an ass hole to you why do you insist on seeing him, we had this discussion the other day and you were totally on my side, but anyways i just might being acting like a hypocrite. but I just hope you realize it call me when you get this.


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